Segments From Arainia’s Journal-The Darkstone Chronicles

It’s been a long time since my mother was taken from us. Sleep no longer comes to me as easily as it once did. I roam corridors of the castle as everyone dreams unfold. Every night I would walk pass my father’s lab and I could hear muffled voices. I made sure Zoe stuck to her lessons and me to my training. Anything to keep the tears and the feeling of sadness pushed deep inside of me. My instructor, Lady Vale, noticed I was purposely letting myself get injured during my spar time. The pain seemed to help keep my mind off my mother not being here.
It all seems as if I’m inside a weird dream I can’t wake up from. I guess writing down my thoughts and things that are happening to me, help a little. I’m so tired I can barely focus to write in this journal.  I want to get stronger so that I can go find out what happen to my mother.  Zoe will be sad when I leave, but I believe she will understand.  Father on the other hand will most likely be very upset. I have so much to prepare for.

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Sometimes It’s Like Beating My Head Against A Wall

I know people that don’t write think that it’s easy to do so, and those of us that do write know how hard it can be.  We live the struggle of writers block, rejection letters, making time to work on projects, self publishing, selling of projects, getting your projects out into the world through marketing and other sources.  I feel like this is an everyday thing with me.  It’s not as bad as it used to be, but even when  I tell myself to write for me and not anyone else it doesn’t always work out that way.  I do want people to read and like my works, but I shouldn’t rely on that to keep me writing.

I should keep writing because I enjoy it, and I really need to get these stories out of my head.  As I sit here this very second writing on a blog that I have taken for granted for much to long, I’m thinking about working on the two books sitting on my laptops desktop.  Although I don’t feel like a real blogger in anyway, I believe publishing these thoughts help me in the creation of my other projects.  Even when writer’s block ruins my night, I can come here and share with everyone the hardships I see in my works.  This helps me in the long run to work through the wall that is keeping me from doing what I enjoy.

I am really bad at marketing and getting my novels out into the world.  The fan page that I have set up on Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/DarkEmpyrean] has a lot of followers, and I hope they enjoy the things I do. I just get so frustrated that I start to rabble on like I am doing in this post. Do I feel like giving up sometimes and deleting my current projects? Yes I do, but I won’t. I know this feeling will pass like it has done in the past, and I will look back on this post as a waste of my time. I will see how I am over reacting and everything will go back to normal with me writing my stories. It is what I truly love to do. Well, that’s all I have for now, and I hope everyone returns to this blog to see how my progress is going. More to Come…