It’s been a long time since my mother was taken from us. Sleep no longer comes to me as easily as it once did. I roam corridors of the castle as everyone dreams unfold. Every night I would walk pass my father’s lab and I could hear muffled voices. I made sure Zoe stuck to her lessons and me to my training. Anything to keep the tears and the feeling of sadness pushed deep inside of me. My instructor, Lady Vale, noticed I was purposely letting myself get injured during my spar time. The pain seemed to help keep my mind off my mother not being here.
It all seems as if I’m inside a weird dream I can’t wake up from. I guess writing down my thoughts and things that are happening to me, help a little. I’m so tired I can barely focus to write in this journal. I want to get stronger so that I can go find out what happen to my mother. Zoe will be sad when I leave, but I believe she will understand. Father on the other hand will most likely be very upset. I have so much to prepare for.
I know people that don’t write think that it’s easy to do so, and those of us that do write know how hard it can be. We live the struggle of writers block, rejection letters, making time to work on projects, self publishing, selling of projects, getting your projects out into the world through marketing and other sources. I feel like this is an everyday thing with me. It’s not as bad as it used to be, but even when I tell myself to write for me and not anyone else it doesn’t always work out that way. I do want people to read and like my works, but I shouldn’t rely on that to keep me writing.
I should keep writing because I enjoy it, and I really need to get these stories out of my head. As I sit here this very second writing on a blog that I have taken for granted for much to long, I’m thinking about working on the two books sitting on my laptops desktop. Although I don’t feel like a real blogger in anyway, I believe publishing these thoughts help me in the creation of my other projects. Even when writer’s block ruins my night, I can come here and share with everyone the hardships I see in my works. This helps me in the long run to work through the wall that is keeping me from doing what I enjoy.
I am really bad at marketing and getting my novels out into the world. The fan page that I have set up on Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/DarkEmpyrean] has a lot of followers, and I hope they enjoy the things I do. I just get so frustrated that I start to rabble on like I am doing in this post. Do I feel like giving up sometimes and deleting my current projects? Yes I do, but I won’t. I know this feeling will pass like it has done in the past, and I will look back on this post as a waste of my time. I will see how I am over reacting and everything will go back to normal with me writing my stories. It is what I truly love to do. Well, that’s all I have for now, and I hope everyone returns to this blog to see how my progress is going. More to Come…
Long ago when I was a boy I bought my first comic book, and seeing Conan on the cover killing his enemy started the thoughts of my best friend and I starting our own comic book. First we had to make up characters. Check. Then developed our dark super hero group. Check. Next we made new character after new character until our number grew to around three hundred, which is pretty impressive (in our minds) for 4th graders.
Now the hard part started. Well, the hard part for me. I found out pretty early that although I was a decent artist, my best friend was and still is an excellent artist. So of course putting my work up against his was a little discouraging. He never compared his art to mine, but in the back of my head I thought the art aspect of our new adventured was to be left to him. I went the writing route. I put out scripted comic books and had my friend draw the scenes. I found I actually enjoyed this more than drawing.
As the years passed, and the thought of doing just comic books faded, I decided to take my characters and put them in novel form. I had this great idea and started taking notes and making outlines. I finally started my first novel The Darkstone Chronicles: The Power Within. It felt great to finally accomplished something on that scale. I took out story lines from the past and began to put down story lines for other novels. I put out book II of The Darkstone Chronicles line. I have all these stories lined up and I’m trying my hardest to get them out in the world.
Writing to me is showing the world that I live in, the universe I created in my head. At the end of the day, I just love writing whether people read it or not. It’s who I am, and who I will always be.
Sorry that I have been away for so long. I have worked on a few side projects and my time has been limited. My third novel, Alexander is coming along nicely. I am almost halfway through the first draft and feel very excited about my progress. I decided it was best to just work on this novel instead of working on two different ones like I was before.
My Facebook fan page is steadily growing and that’s really exciting and a little scary. I am so happy to have all my followers, but there is a small part of me that feels it’s weird that they would want to follow me, and it’s also pretty cool they do. If you would like to join my fan page, go to http://www.facebook.com/DarkEmpyrean and like my page. I post pictures, have contests, talk about books, writing, gaming, Cosplaying, comic books etc…
The contest will start tomorrow March 26 on http://www.facebook.com/DarkEmpyrean. To participate, you must like my page. There will be great prizes given out so come join the fun. Spread the word to friends and family.